That scared me I thought I would go to Hell for sure.I hated myself for wanting to more about Wicca and I hated myself even more for doubting the religion my parents thought me. I thought by doing so I was opening myself to the devil.I also read anything I could get on the subject with witchcraft and magic.
I just wanted to go to Heaven but in the back of my mind I still doubted the existence of a Hell let alone a Heaven. I checked out various books about Wicca from books about Herbs to books by Silver Raven wolf. This wasn’t just spells anymore it was the religion to hell.
So sadly to say I started to search for spells on the internet. I thought I could cast a spell like on Charmed or Sabrina the Teenage Witch and get what I wanted almost instantly. I also was listening to what my family said at the time and they told me that Witchcraft was evil and those people worshipped the devil.
Good looks, better grades, someone to date, and to punish my enemies. So I listened to them and I continued to look up spells.
Ever since I was little I liked to watch anything that had witches or magic in it.
I thought it was the most amazing thing in the world.
So I was hesitant about looking up spells but I thought spells could make me a better person and I could make it up to Jesus later for praying to the Devil for just a little help. So I checked out books about Wicca and every time my parents would catch me I told them I understood and would stop checking them out.
For some reason even though I thought Wicca was evil at the time I couldn’t stop thinking about it and wanting to learn more.
My parents eventually found out what I was doing and told me I was praying to the Devil.
The only reason I was Christian was throughout my life I was thought that if you weren’t Christian than you would forever be tormented in Hell with the Devil.